I don't see it that way. The only going-behind-your-back reasoning was because your behavior was that of someone else and I was convinced you were being manipulated or possessed or whatever else possibility that would make you incapable of answering me and would make it difficult to get an answer elsewhere.
If you want to think of that as me disrespecting you, then I can't really do anything about that, but like hell am I going to not do what I think is the best course of action.
Well, I sure don't know you enough to consult you for what is best, apparently. If it was supposed to be a secret, maybe you should have told me so there weren't any secrets to begin with.
Wasn't that what you said you wanted?
[ he is definitely getting frustrated over this. Door slamming may or may not be heard, they aren all that far away in the hall. Goddamn son of a bitch does anything go right?
Sigh. He won't continue to message her if she doesn't respond, however, because nothing he says or does will fix it, anyway. ]
[Except she can't not reply to that. Thankfully she went with text from the beginning, so there's no change even if she cries.]
Says you?
[She should have told him? Why? He never wanted to hear about magic, even his own that he obviously possessed- and what fool wouldn't think her work was private, with how carefully she hid it away? Excuse, they were just excuses-]
Have you any idea what you've done? You're the one who warned me of how dangerous he is, and how many of my formulas did you show him? Since we are being truthful, let me tell you-
I am the creator of SuLIN, the most lethal poison gas in the world. It makes mustard gas look like child play. It eats away at the lungs in seconds, and boils the surface of the skin on contact. A single breath is enough to kill, and if it is released the number of deaths on my hand will make the men you've killed seem a pittance in comparison!
But didn't you say before you're "the only one who can fix it" when Kida told you to let us help? Either you're the genius your mother claims and why she needed you or you're not that special to have made a discovery like that in the first place. Anyone could have. The only advantage is you're easy.
The only one who can make a new formula and find a cure! Anyone can follow directions and produce the actual product it if they've a copy of my formula and half a brain!
[Its just like following a damn recipe only not for cake but for deaths]
[And she's not convinced by his either. She doesn't know what she wants, but the fact that he's not even apologized, that he kept trying to defend it...]
Only because I have never written it down here, or I suppose you might have stolen that one as well! As it is, you've still given out something that can kill.
[ ...And until she acknowledges she's making her own excuses there's nothing to apologize over. She can throw stones all she wants. If she can't even realize there is nothing he gave out that can kill because no one ever even physically held a part of it to read it nevermind enough to do anything. Add that to the fact the person who knows is Gilgamesh, this argument of hers is just a stupid inability to communicate properly.
But she's also gone and crossed a line now. ]
--Enough, child.
'Satisfied with what I've done?'
You battle me constantly on trust and truth and yet it is you who can't even confront me honestly about why this has hurt you so much? Instead, you wage war with extreme possibilities you know hold no water here in your fear and self-hate. All I have seen come out you thus far is how devastated you are of what the people who know of this now think of you because of me.
...Who the fuck do you think you are, my mother?
If all you care about is everything you've mouthed off to me since deviating from it being a lack of respect to do what i did without even trying to ask you first, then waste your time with the ones I have sullied your reputation with-- starting and ending with the King of Heroes.
At least you know he will not lie to you. At least someone involved is trustworthy, but it's not me.
I suspect you won't listen to him, either, though. All you want to do is hang yourself for what you've made to be you'd crime and you'd rather drag everyone down with it than let any of them pull you out of it.
[ that's all he hears. All of this is stupid, petty , over the top and being made into something it's not because of her own insecurities she will not acknowledge. She is throwing a fit over Gilgamesh finding out what a vile and terrible Human being she is. And while he is sure that is not the actual case for this fear and lashing out, Sieglinde is apparently incapable of doing anything but belittling Masamune. Nothing he points out will be seen as anything but a defense or excuse. Therefore he can't make her change her tune.
But, shit, if you want to lay a proverbial snack down on someone, at least accuse them properly. ]
Dig into me all you like with this approach, but you'll be hard pressed to draw blood.
[ Just stop talking to him. He has more important things to do, like make sure you don't get murdered or tortured as live bait. ]
[It's all wrong. Why didn't he believe her? Why did she have to say it so plainly- how could it not be obvious to him? Why did he think Gilgamesh had anything to do with why she was angry beyond the fact that he told someone. Why did he not think about of this was wrong?]
I already said why! You betrayed me! You stole from me! You kept it from me! You don't seem to think any of that is wrong, but it is! I trusted you, and didn't trust me at all- You went behind my back and you can't even say it wasn't right?
My reputation with Gilgamesh is the least of my worries! But maybe you are right- at least he has not lied to me as you have!
You have my thanks for showing me how foolish I've been all these months!
[She never should have trusted anyone again after the Witch Forest. After the lies. How naive she'd been, to think the Outside World might be different.]
I made a mistake. But if you can only see my reasoning as an excuse to why it was right rather than why I felt it was necessary to do it that way, then there's nothing I can do.
[ it's too bad that she can't get past that feeling enough that he feels he can apologize and she will understand he is sincere. Apologizing without explaining intent seems pointless to him.
However, although he could interfere and elaborate without needing her prompt and assume she will listen once it all sinks in so he can properly apologize, well... perhaps this is a better plan to keep her safe right now, anyway. ]
Hate me all you like, then. You have plenty of reason.
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I know.
[Had she known when she was creating it? No. ... But her mother had told her everything after it was complete.
She knows now.]
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If you want to think of that as me disrespecting you, then I can't really do anything about that, but like hell am I going to not do what I think is the best course of action.
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[To ask her- that's what she doesn't understand. Why didn't he even try to ask her first?]
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[If only she'd done this in person so the door slamming would give a proper indication of when she was Done.]
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Wasn't that what you said you wanted?
[ he is definitely getting frustrated over this. Door slamming may or may not be heard, they aren all that far away in the hall. Goddamn son of a bitch does anything go right?
Sigh. He won't continue to message her if she doesn't respond, however, because nothing he says or does will fix it, anyway. ]
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Says you?
[She should have told him? Why? He never wanted to hear about magic, even his own that he obviously possessed- and what fool wouldn't think her work was private, with how carefully she hid it away? Excuse, they were just excuses-]
Have you any idea what you've done? You're the one who warned me of how dangerous he is, and how many of my formulas did you show him? Since we are being truthful, let me tell you-
I am the creator of SuLIN, the most lethal poison gas in the world. It makes mustard gas look like child play. It eats away at the lungs in seconds, and boils the surface of the skin on contact. A single breath is enough to kill, and if it is released the number of deaths on my hand will make the men you've killed seem a pittance in comparison!
Are you satisfied with that truth, Masamune?
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Apparently its foolish to expect the truth, so who knows what these people are capable of! What science or magic they can do!
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But didn't you say before you're "the only one who can fix it" when Kida told you to let us help? Either you're the genius your mother claims and why she needed you or you're not that special to have made a discovery like that in the first place. Anyone could have. The only advantage is you're easy.
Which is it.
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The only one who can make a new formula and find a cure! Anyone can follow directions and produce the actual product it if they've a copy of my formula and half a brain!
[Its just like following a damn recipe only not for cake but for deaths]
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Okay, but you're the only one who has it.
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Only because I have never written it down here, or I suppose you might have stolen that one as well! As it is, you've still given out something that can kill.
I hope you are satisfied with what you have done!
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But she's also gone and crossed a line now. ]
--Enough, child.
'Satisfied with what I've done?'
You battle me constantly on trust and truth and yet it is you who can't even confront me honestly about why this has hurt you so much? Instead, you wage war with extreme possibilities you know hold no water here in your fear and self-hate. All I have seen come out you thus far is how devastated you are of what the people who know of this now think of you because of me.
...Who the fuck do you think you are, my mother?
If all you care about is everything you've mouthed off to me since deviating from it being a lack of respect to do what i did without even trying to ask you first, then waste your time with the ones I have sullied your reputation with-- starting and ending with the King of Heroes.
At least you know he will not lie to you. At least someone involved is trustworthy, but it's not me.
I suspect you won't listen to him, either, though. All you want to do is hang yourself for what you've made to be you'd crime and you'd rather drag everyone down with it than let any of them pull you out of it.
[ that's all he hears. All of this is stupid, petty , over the top and being made into something it's not because of her own insecurities she will not acknowledge. She is throwing a fit over Gilgamesh finding out what a vile and terrible Human being she is. And while he is sure that is not the actual case for this fear and lashing out, Sieglinde is apparently incapable of doing anything but belittling Masamune. Nothing he points out will be seen as anything but a defense or excuse. Therefore he can't make her change her tune.
But, shit, if you want to lay a proverbial snack down on someone, at least accuse them properly. ]
Dig into me all you like with this approach, but you'll be hard pressed to draw blood.
[ Just stop talking to him. He has more important things to do, like make sure you don't get murdered or tortured as live bait. ]
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I already said why! You betrayed me! You stole from me! You kept it from me! You don't seem to think any of that is wrong, but it is! I trusted you, and didn't trust me at all- You went behind my back and you can't even say it wasn't right?
My reputation with Gilgamesh is the least of my worries! But maybe you are right- at least he has not lied to me as you have!
You have my thanks for showing me how foolish I've been all these months!
[She never should have trusted anyone again after the Witch Forest. After the lies. How naive she'd been, to think the Outside World might be different.]
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But if you can only see my reasoning as an excuse to why it was right rather than why I felt it was necessary to do it that way, then there's nothing I can do.
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He's the one-]
Then do nothing!
[How foolish.]
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However, although he could interfere and elaborate without needing her prompt and assume she will listen once it all sinks in so he can properly apologize, well... perhaps this is a better plan to keep her safe right now, anyway. ]
Hate me all you like, then. You have plenty of reason.
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If she hated him, maybe it would be less painful.
But she doesn't reply.]