[Don't do it, she cautions herself. Don't, don't—]
Whatever I feel for you never seems to measure up to your feelings for Gilgamesh. Like I said, I shouldn't say it in anger. I thought I had accepted it already.
Because I'm the reason you have to deal with all of this. Do you ever wonder, what your situation might be right now if you never felt a need to protect me to begin with?
If it wasn't you, it would have been someone else. Or do you expect me to have been fine and dandy, knowing what he was doing? He wanted me wholly from the moment we entered that dreamworld. And I'm not one to devote myself slavishly to just one person. It might have been that when Campina went down, I wouldn't have even thought to resist him. He might not have been angry, but in that state...
There's a difference between knowing what he can do, and expecting it from him. ...on the Far Sode, he said some terrible things, had a sharp tongue, but he never did anything like... that. Not once. The most was some derogatory words about love and nudist tendencies.
Don't be an ass. The Gilgamesh here has two other Holy Grail Wars that shaped him, and I'm a damned idiot for expecting him to be the same as mine. Yes, I know that now. You don't need to rub it in.
They aren't identical copies of each other. They led the same mortal life. That's true. They committed terrible and amazing deeds, in that life, and are even now capable of doing them again. If he heard you question his loyalty, his oath to me, the Gilgamesh from the Moon Cell would tear you into eighths without blinking, for instance. I know that in my bones. I can literally feel it in his very soul.
Then you're both stupid because you fundamentally lack the ability to understand what loyalty really is.
And, your Gilgamesh could try but he's not capable of doing anything to me. Don't get petty and slide threats in at me. You are already picking up bad habits.
...you know what? I misspoke before. In reality... You don't actually give a shit about my feelings at all, unless I'm being your weird proxy back into his bed, do you? I'm not threatening you, Date Masamune. But if you think killing a cursed and weakened, mind-muddled Gilgamesh is the same as going at it with one in full control of his treasury and powers, you might be overreaching. But hey, I'm stupid for not automatically forgiving someone who attacked me, so what do I even know, right?
You're right, I don't. Happy? Since you are somehow not able to possibly be wrong about anything.
But, what the hell else can you possibly expect from someone you are belittling the same fucking way Gilgamesh did. In favor of Gilgamesh, no less.
Kishinami Hakuno, thanks for both your heads up and the warning. I'll keep my distance with your new servant about. You know, just in case he starts thinking shit that means you might end up needing those command seals on and it interferes with your fairy tale ending.
You're right, I don't, keeps echoing in her head, and she wants to tell herself he isn't being honest, that he's angry, the agony in her chest makes it impossible for her to believe those consolations, true or not. She chokes on the first sob, and each one that forces through her just makes the pain worse.
Wherever he is, when it gets to be to much and the tears are blurring her vision, a portal opens up and dumps something in front of him, something she can't keep and not think of him.
The futon she mad for him lies folded up at his feet, and on the other end of the portal, Hakuno hugs her knees to her chest and thinks of Archimedes. You said it would be a relief to give your whole heart to just one person, he had relayed, speaking of another Hakuno from another timeline, who did the unthinkable for love.
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[Don't do it, she cautions herself. Don't, don't—]
Whatever I feel for you never seems to measure up to your feelings for Gilgamesh. Like I said, I shouldn't say it in anger. I thought I had accepted it already.
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[ He sounds a little bit exasperated here. ]
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And, your Gilgamesh could try but he's not capable of doing anything to me. Don't get petty and slide threats in at me. You are already picking up bad habits.
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But, what the hell else can you possibly expect from someone you are belittling the same fucking way Gilgamesh did. In favor of Gilgamesh, no less.
Kishinami Hakuno, thanks for both your heads up and the warning. I'll keep my distance with your new servant about. You know, just in case he starts thinking shit that means you might end up needing those command seals on and it interferes with your fairy tale ending.
[ He ends this call before it gets any worse. ]
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You're right, I don't.
You're right, I don't.
You're right, I don't, keeps echoing in her head, and she wants to tell herself he isn't being honest, that he's angry, the agony in her chest makes it impossible for her to believe those consolations, true or not. She chokes on the first sob, and each one that forces through her just makes the pain worse.
Wherever he is, when it gets to be to much and the tears are blurring her vision, a portal opens up and dumps something in front of him, something she can't keep and not think of him.
The futon she mad for him lies folded up at his feet, and on the other end of the portal, Hakuno hugs her knees to her chest and thinks of Archimedes. You said it would be a relief to give your whole heart to just one person, he had relayed, speaking of another Hakuno from another timeline, who did the unthinkable for love.
Hakuno envies that, in this moment.]